Friday, May 18, 2012

To the Moon and back ~ a story about truth

There was this girl once, with beautiful blue eyes, mystic in a very dazzling way and even if she always smiled and laughed there was so much going on behind that mask she was always wearing. Whatever happened she may not know or she may not talk about to prevent herself from being hurt again so she thought that the best way to protect herself from those that take advantage of her kindness is to start hiding herself. So as she walked on this lonely road she saw a pebble, she looked at it with those big blue eyes and said : YOU WILL BE THE STEPPING STONE OF MY NEW BEGINNING !! So she picked up the pebble, put it in her pocket and started walking again. As she walked up that road, she was thinking about a place where she would start her new hone .... Somewhere remote where it would be hard to reach, she thought, so she walked high upon a mountain; the view was magnificent, such a fresh air, so much beauty in front of her eyes. So she sat down, built a fire and waited for the night to come. The full moon was up in the sky and it would light up the whole mountain, so she laid back and watched the stars popping up one bye one. She fell asleep peacefully, maybe for the first time in her life but when she woke up she yet realized that this wasn't the perfect place for her new home ... It gets chilly by night and she hates so much to be alone. She got back on her feet, smiled at the mountains, thank them for the good night sleep and walked away in search for her new home. She traveled so much and just when she was ready to give up, to be disappointed once more she saw it ... There it was, just in front of her eyes waiting to be found. This amazing place was all she ever dreamed for, a green hill covered with flowers and a big oak tree where she could rest her tired body an in front of it this big blue pond ... So she walked in front of the pond and looked in it, she could see her reflexion starring back at her, so she said to herself: this sad girl will no longer exist, you shall be forgotten forever, you shall be buried in the darkest place of my mind where no one will ever find you, and so it all began ... One by one the pebbles began to form this beautiful cottage by the pond and when it was all done she looked proudly and said : YOU SHALL BE MY PROTECTOR FROM NOW ON ! With a smiling face she turned her back at the house and started running towards the pond and dove right in it .... Oh what a pleasure that was she screamed. It was so beautiful here, all by herself, just her and her thoughts so she started putting them in order and one by one all her regrets were put in a box locked and sealed where no one would ever find them, where no one would ever know what she has done. But no...wait ! People stated to find their way in to her sanctuary and this was not possible so she started building a wall, but at some point it became too small and they could still see her for what she really was, this wonderful, loving, caring, sensible person but this was not allowed ~ She wouldn't let them hurt her again so she built it much higher until she reached the Moon. As she sat there on her tall wall, looking down at those left behind : it would take a special person to be able to pass this wall I've built.So she came back to her little sanctuary and just went on with her life among the only souls she could ever trust, the 4 creatures that would never judge her or hurt her, the ones that will always be happy to see her : Misha, Licky, Bella and never the less Def, her dogs. But after some time she started to feel lonely so she built this tiny little door that no one would see and in one night she left her home to see once again what was out there, in that world she once she found HIM, the ONE person that made her heart beat faster and faster, that made her eyes be filled with hope once more, that made her wake up from the numbness she felt for years ... So she gave him the two things she hold dear : her heart and her trust ... Little did she know that he saw her as an easy pray and by the half way of the wall he thought that it would be best to return and leave her on the other side....Alone, once more... So she started crying again and asked herself what is wrong with her, doesn't SHE deserve to be happy, to be loved ????? Why did he chose to climb that wall when the door was wide open and why in Heaven's name did he quit so quickly, but still she hopes that one day he will return and be there by her side....until then she locked herself from the world with a broken heart...once more. What she didn't know was that just beyond the pond there was another sanctuary, just like hers with someone who saw how special she was from the first time she saw her that night when she sneaked out from her home to see the one that has her heart. So the two girls talked and talked about their experience in this screwed up life and more and more the second girl realized that for the first time it was great to be outside those walls and even felt protected by the blue eyes girl so one by one she started tearing down her wall, letting her enter her sanctuary and making the other girl realize that for the special persons it's ok to let the fortification down and trust them. ...... What happened next I do not know as the story hasn't been written yet... happy....every day counts!